It Won't Be Long Now

So two weeks from today I begin my senior year of college. Senior freakin year. Naturally because of this people are constantly asking me what I want to do after I graduate. "What do you want to do?" "Do you know what you want to do next year?" "What do you want to be?"

What do I want to be? Shit.

Usually I just answer with a nice "I don't know, I want to work with kids." That usually works, but really what do I want to do? What do I want to be? Hell who do I want to be?

See I'm a sociology major, I've known since I took a sociology class my junior year of high school that I wanted to be a soc. major, that was the easy part. Of course, being a soc. major I can do virtually anything (with enough bs-ing soc. majors could do almost anything).

I want to work with kids, simple enough right? But what do I really want to do. I have no freakin' clue.

What do I want to be though? I think I know this one. I want to be someone.

Someone who means something to the world. Someone who stands for something. Someone who helps people. Someone who is so much more than I am right now.

I want to help people. I want to make my mark. I don't want the world to know my name but I want the people who do know it, know that I meant something, that I did something.

What do I want to do?

I want to work with disadvantaged kids, "at-risk youth" if you will. Basically, I want to help kids who are having a rough time, who don't have a lot, who want (or even don't want) someone to show them the way. I want to help the next generation understand that they matter. I want the kids who see nothing in their future see that there's something there, something that they need to create, and I want them to see that they're not alone in doing it.

On that note, what the fuck am I going to do next year?

P.S. the title of this post was inspired by this song from In The Heights